My hands slid down his arms slowly his lips latching onto mine as I lay back onto his bed. My head hit his pillow with a soft thud as he reached into his dresser pulling out a gold condom. I took in a shaky breath my eyes locking with his.

“You sure?” he asked for what felt like the hundredth time. I nodded my head grabbing his face and pulling it back to mine.

“I’m sure. I want you to be my first” I said my blue orbs meeting his auburn ones. He smirked kissing me again, this time slowly sliding his tongue inside my mouth. I felt his hands go up my sides before reaching around me and undoing my bra. My face reddened as I felt myself become almost fully exposed to him.

“You’re beautiful Crystal” he said lowly his lips moving lowly from my ear to my collarbone. I gasped my mouth hanging open from the unsuspected shock my body gave me as he sensually kissed that spot. He smirked up at me a devilish glint in his eyes as he kissed further down, sucking occasionally making sure to leave what was now red marks that would later on turn purple. I closed my eyes tightly a soft moan escaping my lips as my nipple entered the warm confines of his mouth. His tongue teased me, as I felt his hands trail down my stomach until they reached the brim of my jeans slowly undoing the button and unzipping them. I bit down harder on my now swollen bottom lip as I felt him kiss down my stomach and pull down my pants. 

“Stop teasing me” I groaned as he kissed the inside of my thighs, my patience weighing thin. 

“Good things come to those who wait” he chuckled looking at my peeved expression. I leaned up on my elbows staring him in the eyes as he leaned forward, our foreheads touching.

“Give me what I want” I said lowly my eyes going to his lips as he licked them.

“I like how you think you controlling shit” he smirked, my stomach clenching at the hungry look in his eyes.

“I don’t think I know” I said my lips brushing against his as I spoke. He grabbed the back of my neck pulling my face to his roughly, his lips attacking mine. The sound of our heavy breathing and the movement of our lips filled the room. My heart pounded in my chest as I felt his hands slide my boy shorts down.

“Lay down” he said his voice deep and raspy. I obeyed, his voice making me want him more than before. My mouth hung open feeling the sudden contact of his lips on my love.

“Michael” I moaned loudly as his tongue entered me. My back arched as I felt his tongue delve deeper into me. I bit down on my lip, trying to suppress the loud moans that wanted so badly to come out.

“Shhiiittt” I hissed it felt like he was doing figure eights with his tongue. His fingertips dug into my thighs holding me in place as I tried to scoot away.

“Stop running” he said pulling away from me momentarily. Soft whimpers exited my lips as he entered me again, my stomach tensing up as I felt myself reaching my climax. My mouth opened in the shape of an O as I felt myself release. He kissed my lips before he leaned up so our faces were in front of each other. I closed my eye trying to control my breathing.

“You wanna know something?” he whispered as he kissed the spot behind my ear, I nodded unable to speak.

“You’re the only girl I’ve done that to” he announced, placing light kisses along my jaw. I smiled, my hands going to his neck as my eyes met with his.

“I love you,” I said before kissing him.

“I love you too,” he said before his tongue entered my mouth, the taste of me still lingering there. I bit down hard on his lip as I felt him enter me slowly. Tears built up in my eyes as I felt him breaking the barrier of my innocence.

“It’ll feel better I promise” he spoke kissing my cheek as tears rolled down. He grunted loudly, burying his face in my neck.

“Damn you’re so tight Cry,” he said biting down on my neck, making a loud moan escape my lips. I took my bottom lip into my mouth as the pain I was feeling slowly dissolved and formed into something else. Soon after moans were exiting my mouth relentlessly. 

“Michael!” I yelled loud enough for his neighbors to hear as he went deeper into me, my nails clawing into his back.

“Fuck” he grunted his hands gripping my waist as he went a little faster, I could tell he was trying to hold back, trying not to be too rough. The headboard repeatedly tapped against the wall as his pace quickened and his stroke got deeper. I bit into his shoulder feeling myself coming near my climax again. A loud shriek like moan exited my mouth as my juice spilled out of me. He grunted slowing his pace down as I felt him swell inside of me.

“I’m about to- DAMN” he grunted as he came, collapsing on top of me. We laid in silence, both of us trying to steady our breathing. I closed my eyes feeling him peck my cheek as our hearts beat in unison.

“I love you Crystal Forreal,” Michael murmured tiredly as his breath tickled my neck due to his face being buried there.

“I love you too,” I said quietly before we drifted to sleep.

******

I didn’t want to lie to Chris but I didn’t want to tell him about me and Michael. I didn’t talk to anyone about me and Michael’s relationship; it was still a touchy subject for me. Yeah, I’d gotten over what he’d done to me but I hated to look back on what we had. Because every time I did I would end up wondering what could’ve been. I looked back up at Chris contemplating what to say.



“What do you mean?” she asked her eyes a little wide, showcasing how I had caught her off guard. I shook my head a bitter chuckle exiting my lips as I looked away from her, my eyes going to the lights that were illuminating the city.



“What do you think I mean Crystal?” I said my eyes going back to her. She ran her hair through her wet hair letting out a gust of air before she spoke.



“We used to date” she said before she shrugged and walked back through the patio doors, the wind becoming too much for her.



“For how long?” I asked following behind her. She looked back at me over her shoulder, a frown etched on her face.



“Why?” she asked sitting down on the bed her face holding a nonchalant expression. I ran my tonuge across my teeth staring at her.


“Because I want to fucking know how long you were fucking my nigga” I said my face turning red from frustration. I hated how she was trying to act like it wasn’t a big deal. She looked up at me a smug look on her face.

“Well when I was with him, he wasn’t yo nigga. And I find it funny how you are asking all these questions when you haven’t even told me about that Angela bitch” she spoke as she rose from the bed to walk directly in front of me.

“You didn’t fucking know her so don’t call her a bitch” I said trying to control the anger that she had rose within me.

“Someone’s getting a little defensive” she smirked, making my blood boil. 

“Man fuck it. I ‘m Done” I said walking past her to the door.

“Really?” She asked making me look over my shoulder at her disapproving expression.

“Yeah really I don’t have time for this bullshit” I said turning back around. She shook her head, her face turning red.

“Fine fuck you. Leave like they always fucking do” she said going into the bathroom and slamming the door behind her. I stood there silent for a while, what the fuck?



I sighed running my hand through my hair as tears built up in my eyes. My mother’s face suddenly displayed against my eyelids making the tears come on stronger as I heard her voice in my head.

“I should’ve just aborted your ass. You were a mistake. You’ll always be one” She yelled loudly making me crumble down to the floor and pull my legs up to my chest.

“No one will ever want you! You think that little Chinese nigga really loves you?! HA! He just wants to fuck you sweetheart” she laughed bitterly. I bit onto my bottom lip my hatred for her making me want to scream.

“Crystal don’t listen to her aiight? I love you. Michael loves you. Vanessa loves you too” Calvin spoke softly in my head. I closed my eyes tighter my chest heaving up and down as my brothers face filled my mind. 

“I miss you so much Calvin” I spoke quietly, resting my head on my knees. A loud banging and Chris repeatedly calling my name took me out of the daze I was in.

“Leave me the fuck alone!” I shouted my anger coming back. 

“Blondie come the fuck out the bathroom!” He yelled his accent becoming apparent in his voice. I rolled my eyes slowly rising off the floor only to sit on the sink. I wiped the tears from my face, hating the fact that I showed any sign of weakness to him.

“Christopher leave me the fuck alone. You said you were leaving so leave” I said calmly, but loud enough for him to hear. He hit the door a few more times, trying to bring it down. I frowned hopping off the sink and quickly pulling the door open.

“What the fuck Crystal?!” he exclaimed his eyes quickly examining my face. I rolled my eyes and brushed roughly past him to get to the bed.

“Look I aint mean what I said aiight?” he said turning around and looking at me sympathetically. 

“It doesn’t matter. I don’t give a fuck. And you obviously don’t so lets just get this shit over with and go our separate ways” I said pulling the cover to the bed bac preparing to go to sleep.

“Why do you gotta take everything to heart? I was mad I aint mean what I said but you-you pressed my buttons” he said becoming frustrated again. 

“I didn’t take shit to heart. Im just not about to sit here and beg your ass to stay. Im used to people leaving me. You’re no exception” I said shaking my head and looking away from him.

“I told you I don’t want to leave you. I like you Blondie aiight?” he said walking over to me and lifting my chin up so my eyes met with his. I

“Oh you like me now?” I said sarcastically a light chuckle escaping my lips. He smiled, showcasing the set of pearly white teeth he had and his slightly crooked front tooth.

“If I didn’t like you I woulda been gone a long time ago” he said sincerely his brown orbs staring intently into my blue ones. He leaned closer connecting my lips with his, I sighed letting myself relax against him as his hands gripped my waist and mine gripped his neck.

“You my bonnie right?” he asked kissing down from my lips to my neck.

“Are you my Clyde?” I asked lifting an eyebrow as he hungrily bit into the sensitive spot beneath my ear.

“You always gotta be difficult” he chuckled falling backwards onto the bed with me wrapped securely in his arms.

“Difficult is my middle name.. so answer my question. Are you my Clyde?” I said tracing the tattoos on his chest.

“Yeah” he said his voice deeper and his eyes suddenly holding a certain gleam to them.

“Then yeah im ya Bonnie” I smiled kissing him. He rolled over so he was ontop deepening the kiss.

“Imma have to teach you a few thangs” he said his accent becoming more noticeable to me every time he talked.

“And what would them ‘thangs’ be” I asked laughing lightly.

“You’ll find out soon enough” he said biting on my neck again, a moan escaping my lips.